Giuliana is growing up so fast, it literally makes my head spin sometimes. Just a second ago I was struggling with nursing and buying size 1 diapers. Now I have a girl who runs around the house playing "Twinkle Twinkle" on her kazoo and is practicing climbing in and out of her (really HIGH) big Big Girl bed.
I posted this picture on Facebook the other day and my friend (Hi, Kate!) wrote back, "cute pics of a little girl, but where is Giuliana...I don't see a baby anywhere?" AHHHH! She's so right! Look at that face-no trace of a baby anywhere!
Lately I've been trying to let myself allow her to grow-up a little bit. Just a little bit. She's such a good girl. She's so careful. And she enjoys her freedom. But, man, is it hard to let go. I've been allowing her to play by herself for short periods of time, even if I can't see what she's doing. I've even permitted her to be on a different floor of the house by herself for a few minutes! I'll admit, putting that in print fills me with anxiety. Am I a terribly negligent mother?!? What do you mean you don't have your eyes on her EVERY MOMENT! But then I remember, again, she's not six months old anymore. She is growing up and deserves the freedom, and responsibility, of a little independence.
Right at this moment I am sitting in her bedroom, on the laptop, while she plays her toy piano and sings "Old MacDonald." She sings about good Ol' Mac and his duck, and she stops suddenly and asks where her little toy duck is.
"It's downstairs, I think" she says, "I go get it, be right back!" And then she runs away.
"Be careful," I call out as she heads for the stairs.
Be Careful. I must say that a hundred times a day. Enough that she often looks at me as she is about to do something risky and says, "Be careful, Giuliana!" just to save me the effort, I guess. But then she usually does take her time with whatever it is she is trying to do and is careful about it, so the reminder must stick somewhere in her brain.
I know it's just a matter of time before she is driving away on her own. I just want to make sure she's always careful, whether I'm there to remind her or not.
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I am just going to sit here and cry! G is growing up to be such an amazing little independent girlie! I love it but I can't believe it. It was not that long ago that she wasn't even HERE. what the heck happened?? where did the time go? (oh god...now I sound like my mother!!...)
Oh, this is the hardest/best thing, isn't it??
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