Not Mother of the Year

I'm feeling like a particularly crappy mother right about now, so I felt I needed to share it with you. My daughter came down with a fever overnight. She had been feeling a little listless in the late afternoon. I chalked it up to the heat and humidity. She hasn't wanted to eat much the last several days, ditto the heat. She has had some diarrhea the last several days...not sure why. So, last night: fever. It was really hot in her room, but I could tell this wasn't just the heat. I turned on the AC and gave her Tylenol. Checked on her a couple of hours later and she seemed cooler to the touch, though she was whining a lot in her sleep.
When I woke her up this morning she seemed like her normal self. I, as usual, was rushing to get out of the house to attempt to get to work somewhere near the time I'm supposed to be there. Got her to Grandma's with no worries. Then, about an hour later my mom called to say G had another fever, 102.2. She also gave Tylenol, but the fever didn't go down. I called the pediatrician, they are no help, just said to push fluids and give BRAT diet. No duh, people...WHY does she have a fever out of the blue? That is my question.

So, here's where I feel crappy Working-Mommy guilt. She's been at my mother's all day. She still has a fever, still not feeling like she wants to play or anything. And I'm sitting at work. I feel like I am neglecting her. I know she is in excellent, loving hands. My mom is taking good care of her. As a matter of fact, I just got off the phone with my mom and G is asleep in her arms right now. But she's not asleep in MY arms.

These are the days I ab-so-f*ing-lute-ly HATE working!