Breaking

This week has been filling up the way most weeks have been lately. It started off pretty mellow. Monday didn't look too bad. There were phone calls to make, appointments to schedule and keep...places to go, people to see, that sort of busy.

Tuesday was sort of awful. Giuliana lost it when I dropped her off at my parents' house. Full-on tears, pouty lip, wailing. I cried all the way to work considered turning around, picking her up, calling into work, going home...but I didn't do it.

And the week just filled up from there, as it always does. Wednesday was department meeting at work. We were going to be discussing an important issue, had to be there. Yesterday we had another big, important meeting that I couldn't miss. And my sister-in-law, who works with me, had her work bridal-shower. Not to be missed!! Today I had another meeting that I scheduled. Tomorrow is full of shopping for party decorations and attending another party for two of my favorite people on the planet. Sunday is Father's Day. And everything will begin again on Monday.

And what has G's week been like? It has been typical, too. Lot's of time at Grandma's. Little time at home. Rushing, rushing every morning, every evening. Rushing with mommy to the store. Rushing with mommy to the store again. Meltdown over leaving Daddy Thursday morning.

My life is becoming too busy, too full for my comfort. I haven't taken any time for myself, for my daughter. There has been plenty of time off, unfortunately. Just not the right kind. Time off for many, many doctor's appointments here, there, and everywhere. No time to just relax, to just enjoy each other, to play.

So, today, I felt a migraine come on. I cancelled my appointment. Called into work. John only had to work a half day. G and I stayed home and played, watched tv, cuddled, ate, enjoyed. I napped while my kid napped. We are getting ready to go on a family walk. I don't even have to make dinner tonight, John said we can go out.

Tomorrow is another day. It will be busy. Full of Things To Do. But today I just couldn't do it. I couldn't keep running. Today I needed a break. It was well worth it.